I’ve already started mentally preparing to go home for Christmas.Not because I’m counting down with excitement, but because I’m preparing myself emotionally, in case this is the last one Dad remembers.If he remembers it at all. That thought has been sitting quietly in the background for weeks now.Unspoken but heavy.Not just the grief of what’s […]
Some people’s Roman Empire is actual Roman history. Mine is a mildly awkward chat I had four years ago at a party where I made a joke that didn’t land, panicked, doubled down with another bad joke, and then spent the rest of the night avoiding eye contact while mentally packing my bags and moving […]
We’ve never told Dad he has dementia. It’s not a secret, exactly. It’s a complex and hard choice, a way to protect him from the fear, the confusion, the spiral that might come with knowing something he can’t fully understand or control.So he doesn’t know what’s slipping.Doesn’t know why the world feels a bit foggier […]
It really depends on the day. Some mornings I wake up and the lighting hits just right. I drink my pre-workout like I’m in a wellness ad. I strut through the world with main character energy, inner monologue fully narrated by Beyoncé. Other days?I’m wandering aimlessly through Coles in my gym shorts, holding a single […]
My techno era didn’t start in Berlin or some sweaty warehouse party at 4am.It started at a straight event.In a gay club.That I worked at.Already a confusing sentence, I know. I wasn’t expecting much that night, I was vibing, watching the crowd, just happy to not be on for once.Then the DJ dropped a set […]
Content warning: This post contains descriptions of sexual assault and may be distressing for some readers. Please take care while reading. I was at a party.One of those big, loud nights where everyone’s sweating, dancing, vibing.I met a guy. Charming, flirty, fun. He had a partner, but told me they had an open thing. “He’s […]
I applied for a new internal role at work. Which feels kind of like changing rooms in the same house, but also like moving into a part of the building where they keep the good snacks and take you a bit more seriously. Applying was a mix of “I know I can do this” and […]
Growing up in Orange, my family had a nightly ritual. At 7pm sharp, the TV flicked on, and without fail we were transported to Summer Bay. Home & Away wasn’t just a show, it was a staple, a kind of family glue. Among the familiar faces, Irene always stood out. She wasn’t just a character; […]
It’s a strange thing, seeing your friends grieve.Not quietly. Not politely. But in real time, faces crumpling, bodies shaking, holding each other because words aren’t enough. Usually time together is fun, chaotic.Most of my memories live in the corners of dancefloors or for some reason, someones kitchen. There’s glitter and noise in the way I […]
This is a follow-up to an Instagram post I shared back in March 2021. A reflection on one of the hardest points in my life, and everything that’s shifted since. You can view the post here: https://www.instagram.com/p/CMfuy96Hl3I/?igsh=MThyMmpiMmkwdXNvYw== Back then, I was deep in anxiety, or at least, that’s what I thought.Every day felt like I […]
