Three Years of Almost

I was in a situationship for almost three years.
Three years of not dating someone, but still planning weekends together. Still texting daily. Still knowing exactly how they like their eggs. Still wondering if this was finally the moment they’d choose me… properly.

They never did.

And the wild part? That’s not even the only time it’s happened.
Somehow, I keep finding myself in these almost-things.
The soft-launch romance. The situationship with vibes.
The “we’re not together, but we’re basically together” zone.
Feeling like introducing each other as “this is my… friend” wasn’t sufficient.
They like me. They stay close.
But they never commit.
It’s like they’re keeping me warm while they wait for the next best thing.
And I’m standing there, not sure if I should stay hopeful or start detaching.

It’s exhausting.
Because I don’t want something casual that feels intense but doesn’t go anywhere.
I want something more real.
I want someone who chooses me while I’m still standing in front of them, not once they realise no one better’s walking through the door.

So now I’m trying to unlearn the habit of settling for almost.
Of getting emotionally invested in people who aren’t actually investing back.


Anyone else ever find themselves stuck in that in-between space — not alone, but not really loved either?

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